Supposedly this is supposed to be My Year

3 / 22 / 2026

Well girlies... Unsure of how I'm gonna get out of this one.

Okay okay okay. First I was gonna focus on the debt right now, but I just remembered that this was supposedly gonna be my year. Like, as in over the past few years, a couple of different psychics all individually said that 2026 was gonna be "my year". And Lord Mammon also said that this was the year I was gonna be working full-time (or close enough if I'm still self-employed).

I totally forgot all about this. But maybe they were onto something, because at least one of them said that I would be stepping into power, and now I'm a political candidate for a small local position. That's kinda weird to think about. I literally just got asked by my local progressive committee to do it because nobody else has run in a really long time. (At least someone who isn't a chess piece for inbred bigwigs who want to keep brown people out of town.)

It's not about me winning per se, it's about setting a precedent that people younger than middle-aged should get more involved with their local community so they can make positive changes and approve laws that would do things like protect our local ecosystem.

As for how this is gonna go... IDK. I guess it's still cool to meet new people with all this stuff. My treasurer said that I at least look and act like I know what I'm talking about, so there's that.

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Still on that magic grind, too. I really need to start focusing on other things but... Lately I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything. And physically I'm really tired. I'm gonna keep asking Glasya-Labolas to help with clearing my mind. And apparently he also really wants to help with the new career path that I've been exploring, mentioned above. He was actually helping me when my mind was all messed up from med withdrawal earlier. Ave Glasya-labolas I guess!

I've been learning a lot, too. Like about how Yahweh was originally some storm/war god and then everyone worshipped him because they invoked him to destroy their enemies. And then he got mixed with El and became the Creator God of the new religion. It's more complicated than that, obviously, but that's the gist of it. But I guess it really makes sense that a lot of these guys who follow him and variations of him are warmongers. I'm not really surprised.

It's also just kind of weird because now with all the politics stuff... I live in a relatively rural-ish area where everyone believes in God to the point where county meetings will open with a prayer. Even the progressive committee private meetings begin with a prayer. (Though at least with the dem meeting it was labeled as a "prayer or reflection", meaning we at least had the choice not to pray if we didn't want to.)

I don't know. I really hate Christianity. I cannot forgive this "god" for genociding so many people. All the prayer stuff makes me uncomfortable. I'm willing to believe that El was loving, but the Yahweh side of "God" is disgusting. The only people who seem to agree with me are the really annoying atheists who hate all religion. But I don't even hate all religions! Just this one (and its related branches)!

I dunno. Maybe I can convince more people to get this religious shit out of politics. Even though I am a highly spiritual person, I firmly believe in the separation of church and state. It's just kinda infuriating that people will stick their heads in the sand so hard for a god that acts like an abusive parent toward everyone. Even when I was a kid, I didn't like how God just killed everyone he didn't like, even though he was the one who made them knowing full well they would be bad.

I believe in the Dao, but that's a state of being. It doesn't have a consciousness or anything. It just Is.

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